I am who I am

It was a typical Wednesday in the Cameron house. Grace was her typical stubborn, high spirited self, Scott was busy at work, and I spent the day not wanting to do anything. And I ended up picking up my brother-in-law from work, having to go to TWO pharmacies for one of my prescriptions, and then coming home and packing my mothers Avon order for her (cause she works at my brothers garage all day on Wednesday and had an Avon meeting tonight [and in all honesty I enjoy it lol]), and then I got to make a yummy dinner for everyone. Scott went off to his meeting, and Grace and I spent some time snuggling and playing. Boring day, huh? Lol it's okay I think it too sometimes.

I've been dreaming about getting in the car and just driving lately. See where the road takes me, definitely visit Maggie's grave. I'm just feeling restless really. I need to do something, go somewhere or something...

I've really missed writing. It's a good outlet for me, always has been. I used to write poems all the time, my grandfather thought I could go places with it. I'm sorry I disappointed him. I stopped writing ten years ago and I've barely kept up here since I created it 3 years ago. And I created it to be my outlet, the one place I could talk, write, and say ANYTHING I've wanted, but I always find myself not saying things cause I'm afraid how people will react to things. But I seem to have grown a backbone lately because I'm saying more of what's on my mind. That, or my meds are really loosening me up lol. Someday I hope I can get back into writing, make something of myself, and make my grandfather proud. Make my daughter proud.

It's getting late and I really should be going to bed, and I'm quite sure you've stopped reading by now because I've said absolutely nothing of importance or interest. This would probably be the best time to tell a secret or something, but I don't have any lol. It's a shame really cause it would be interesting to see how many of you actually read what I write. See if anyone still reads this. I'm not interesting anymore, cancer's gone, shows no signs of coming back, pain is nothing more than nerve damage, and I've got no secrets to let out. Yeah I'm pretty boring but someday I'm pretty sure I'll have a secret to share, and I just may do it in a boring, run of the mill post. So stay on your toes for now. And hey, if you did get this far, leave a comment ;-). And who knows, maybe there will be a secret to share someday soon ;-)

Be well all...