Well step 2 is a failure before it even started. We were gonna go through fertility treatment and have another baby but dreams have been crushed once we heard how much the first set of injections cost. A whopping 446.53$. Yea… can't afford that so the dream is over. Grace will be an only child and my dreams will be unfulfilled. I'm beyond crushed and heartbroken about this. 

I'm so done with family…. I'm tired of feeling so hurt and heartbroken by them and yet I can't stop caring. Maybe if I just stay away and never know when they all get together without me it would be fine but every time I hear they got together and left me out I'm left completely heartbroken and devastated. I just can't figure out why they hate me so much. They must or else they wouldn't exclude me all the time. I'm just tired of crying after I've been with them…