Replaying the past over and over,
Wondering what went wrong.
Friends and family all around me,
Trying to make me strong.
Trying to sleep at night,
Tossing and turning,
Wondering if I'll be alright.
Wanting to fight for a cause,
Watching the world around me move on,
Only my life has hit a complete pause.
Trying real hard to hold on,
All my hate has surfaced,
My life basically gone,
Where do I go from here?
Not wanting anyone to know,
I try real hard to hide it well,
Until now no one knew,
How my has turned to hell.
That day changed my life,
More than you could ever know.
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I know I don't
Really show it
But I hope you
Always know it
With all my heart
I love you
With a love that
Is so true
You taught me
Things I never knew
Lessons on life and
Always be true
I just want
You to know
I never want to
Let you go
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Losing you would make me go mad
How my life would be so sad
Crying at night
Losing all sight
Of the memories we had
Wanting to remember
Trying to remember
Not wanting to cry anymore
As I watched you walk out that door
Life was never this crazy
When you left things became hazy
I want to die
But all I do is cry
Why did you leave me?
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Alone I sit and think of you
Wondering why you were not true
Sitting alone
Watching the sky
Wondering why you did not call
I try to speak
But cannot think
As I watched you go by
I wanted to lie down and die
Waiting for you
To come back to me
Why did we not try?
The only thing I do now is cry
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I see you hold her hand
All I do is cry
I gave you all my love
But you wouldn't even try
When I see you kiss her
I imagine you kissing me
Why didn't it work out?
I think of you constantly
Is there some reason
I can not be with you
I cannot let you leave me here
Wont you love me too?
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You said you'd always love me
You told me you'd always care
You swore that you'd be faithful
You promised to always be there
You swore to never leave me
You vowed to never lie
You promised to never hurt me
But all I do is cry
I'm so very sorry
What I did was wrong
I shouldn't have betrayed you
Our love was way too strong
And every single night
Before I go to sleep
I lie awake and wonder
Do you still love me?
Why do I feel so lonely?
This is shattering my heart
Why couldn't we work this out?
Why did we split apart?
And every time I close my eyes
All I see is you
Our love will never die
Because its still true
I feel so empty without you
No words can ever express how I feel
And deep in my heart I know that
My love for you is real
Our love will never die
No matter what you do
I want you to know that
I still love you
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The love I knew
Is not like that love I feel
For once in my life
It seems to be a fair deal
Watching you
Memorizing your face
No longer watching
The world from behind black lace
Trying to know if this is real
Wondering if its still so true
You hold me close
And whisper I love you
And every time we kiss goodbye
I don't want this feeling to end
And over you shoulder a kiss you send
You tell me you'll call
You and me together
Waiting til the next day
And you'll hold me close forever
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Watching the world go by
Wanting to know just why
My life has to be so bad
Why do I have to be so sad?
Friends around me
Try to cheer me
Forcing a smile upon my face
Depression hits and I sink so low
The bleeding starts fast, my heart beating slow
My life slowly slipping away
Still holding on for another day
Acting cheerful and happy all day
Wondering if theres another way
Another way of living
Another way giving
Where can I go?
No one evens knows
What is really wrong
Why must I act so strong?
My life is almost gone
My life almost done
I'm sitting here so sick inside
My real fries have cast me aside
Can I move on?
Where have I gone?
Where can I go?
I'm stuck here with nowhere to go
Nowhere to turn and nothing to do
Trying here and losing you too
Trying so hard to hold on
Love is mostly gone
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The love he shows
Can't be for me
The one he loves
Really can't be me
But he tells me
He loves me
But how can I know?
If its really me he loves?
He holds me close
Whispers good night
On my cheek
A kiss so sweet
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Only you
My real friend
Can help me out
But you seem to hate me
Why do you hate me?
What did I do wrong?
I can think of nothing
To end this friendship
You won't even
Talk to me
To tell me what
I did so wrong
I'm sitting here
Waiting for you to call
The phone never rings
Now midnights here
I want to call you
But you just hang up
Maybe we can talk this out
Instead of ending it now
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I wanted to
Stay forever
In this
Our love affair.
But something happened
And I'm
Trying to
Hold on.
Holding on
To something not there
Causes nothing
But heartache and pain.
He told me
He loved me
And when he said it
He held me close.
I guess
He lied
Like all
The others.
Never knowing
If a guy is true
Kills you.
Not everyone
Is the same
Someday, someone
Won't hurt you.
The way
They say it
Should be so clear
But it's not.
It hurts
If the guy is not true
But you will
See him always
And it will hurt.
And everytime
You do see him
Hold you head
Up high.
And when
He see's
How strong
You are
He'll come back.
But if he doesn't
It just means
Some one better
Is waiting.
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It's hard to have faith
When you've been hurt so much.
But that faith remains
It's always there
When you have faith
Something better comes along
It may seem false, but it's true
When you lose someone
Someone new comes along
they teach you new things
In all that they do
Whether they hurt or help
There's a lesson there, just look
Keep your faith strong
He will guide you and help you
He will keep you safe from harm.
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Some people make you feel worthless
But they don't decide who you are
He'll take the pain away
He decides your worth.
And when you feel lonely
Just call on him for help
Turn to him and tell him
He'll take the pain and help you grow
So when you feel down, just remember
Just say I am a child of God
And that makes me great
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Dying seems to be the only way
For most teens at least
But when they see life isn't that bad
It's too late to get help
They think things would be better if they were gone
But it'll only hurt the world more
To see a friend or loved one dead
And realize you never helped
That's the pain that can never be cured.
So if you see a friend in need
Try and get them the help they need
It could be you that saves the day.
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Depressions the worst
For any teen at least
It could be stopped
But it takes control.
We destroy each other every day
We could all be friends
Instead of small cliques
Soon you will see.,
We are all the same
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Something told me to let go
Something told me not to hold on
Something told me you were not true
Now I know love is gone
You said it, yes you did
But something just wasn't there
I could feel it in the way you kissed me
I thought I never hate you
But it turns out I do
I'll try to forget you
And move on from here
I'll find a new love
And you'll be a forgotten memory
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When your not loved
You feel so used
Like you've been forgotten
Or your hearts been abused
Hearts forgotten
Never found
Buried deep
Inside the ground
Dig it up
Wipe it clean
And remember that
Not everyones so mean
Hearts forgotten
Always abused
Duried deep
After years of unuse
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Life didn't seem worthwhile
I wanted to die but yet I always smiled
I no longer tried to hide
Empty promises people always lying
Relationships begin with kisses but always end in crying
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I though you were different from everyone else
But you weren't
I trusted you like no one else
And now I've been hurt
I just wanted you to hold me
But that would never be true
That could never be
Now lifes always blue
You chose my friend
I was so hurt inside
Our conversations came to an end
And my heart has pratically died
I tried to call you
Oh I would've loved to hear your voice
But no calls came from you
A faded memory is your voice
Crying into the lonely night
Fighting for control
Wishing I had you in my sight
But love has taken its toll
Seeing you was different
So different from the picture I had
Now my heart is broken and bent
And yet you never felt bad
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All the memories I have of you
Makes me wonder why we split apart
Thinking of the happy times we had together
Makes me yearn for more
Missing your soft embrace
And the carefree way you held me
I always dial your phone number
But hang up before it connects
Why am I so scared to call you
Why wont you call me first
I guess you'll always have a piece of my heart
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I sit here crying
As I realize you don't love me
I sit here in tears
As I notice you don't want me
All I ever was, was your little princess
Until I got older
Then the talks became less friendly
Your heart became a little colder
Now its just before I turn 16
And all you do is yell at me
It seems nothing I do is right
Please tell me why you hate me
I had no idea I was unwanted
I didn't know you didn't need me
Until today that is
When I sit here with just my tears
And a broken heart just the same
Why cant someone calm my fears
Why dont you ever say you love me
Why don't you ever tell me you care
Why don't you ever hug me close
And keep me so very near
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How can I lose so much
And somehow not feel
I don't feel happy or sad
But the tears still fall
But I don't know why
I've seen people die
And others live
But the tears still fall
I don't feel like crying
I don't feel like Laughing
I only want to be alone
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I sit here and wait for nothing
The tears fall silently
I cry and cry
But no sound is made
My heart breaks in two
My birthday always passes
And no one seems to notice
That with every passing year
I grow sadder than before
No one says that they love me
No one says that they care
The tears fall endlessly
As I notice I'm unwanted
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The tears form in my eyes
As I listen to your angry cries
The abuse yiu give me everyday
Hurts me in such a way
I listen to you yell and scream
How could you be so mean
The abuse I bore was more than words
As you hit me and called me a whore
I could not escape your horrid ways
And when I tried you hit me those days
The pain got worse and you hit me more
But you only did it behind closed doors
In front of people you were so nice
You hid behind a great disguise
You hit me where it doesn't show
And why I kept quiet, I'll never know
I couldn't bear the pain anymore
So I bought a gun and theres no more
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My heart breaks every day
As I go on and still pretend
No one knows what is wrong
No one knows my pain
No one sees the tears
Behind my plastic smile
No one knows just what I feel
No one sees my fears
All they see is smiles
They don't see the scars
They don't see the pain
My heart breaks every day
And all I can do is smile
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You imagine what she looks like
Even though you never met
But still every night you cry
As you hold the teddy bear close
The one that used to lay in her crib
The crib she didn't get to see
You packed away all her things
The clothes she never wore
The toys she never used
The tears roll down your face
Because you can not cope
With losing your unborn baby
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Mommy I don't know what I did
I didn't know that id been bad
Mommy I need to know
Who are you punishing, are you really mad?
I see you crying mommy
But when I hug you you don't feel
And when I say I Love you mommy
Its almost like you didny hear
Mommy I know that you cant see me
But I really am okay
Mommy please don't cry for me
I know this was the best way
I know you really wanted me
Mommy I understand youre took young
But tell me who my daddy is
Tell him what you have done
Mommy I know that you cant see me
Or hear me even if I tried
I know that your too young
Mommy please don't cry
I just want to know mommy
Why you had killed me that way
Abortion is too easy
They should make it go away
Adoption would've been better
Your tears would not be spent
Mommy Id still be alive
If only you thought of that instead
No one knows just what you've done
Except for you and me
Mommy please don't forget me
Promise me youll be true
Mommy I know what youre feeling
Cause I also feel your pain
Mommy please stop crying
Please just stop the rain
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I want to be alone
But people are everywhere
I try to get away
But everyone has me boxed in
I scream, I cry
But no one hears
And it angers me even more
I hit, I kick
But only in my mind
No one hears
Or even listens
Do they just not care
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I sit and wonder why
All the pain I feel
Is it pain that I've caused
Or was something done to me
I sit and think of love
The love I never found
I sit and I dream
Of places I could go,
Places left unseen
But I'm stuck here in hell
A hell of my own making
Demons plague me
And I get no peace
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The rivers of tears
The oceans of blood
The frightened screams
When the shots rang out
The deafening noise
When the shots rang loud
The screaming sirens
All around us now
His body's on the ground
Laying in a pool of blood
Where are the medics
Its taking so long
The cops did nothing
They watched it go down
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No one sees the hurt behind my fake smile
No one sees the tears all the while
I lay and cry myself to sleep at night
All while trying to win this fight
I try to be what they all see
I try to stay true to me
I try so hard to hide my cries
My lifes nothing nut lies
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I feel empty inside
Like everyones gone
Like no one cares
Like loves all gone
I know its strange
Saying these things
But I feel caged in
No one seems to know me
Whats the big deal
Forever alone, I feel so empty
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A girl sits all alone
Wondering whats going on
A girl sits all alone
Wondering if theres a gun
A girl sits all alone
Thinking of her fears
A girls sits all alone
Andsees no one near
A girl sits all alone
In a casket in the ground
A girl sits all slone
And no one sees her gone
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