Feeling rather discouraged today and I'm not sure if I want to continue on this journey or try again later… Scott says keep going, I just want to quit…

Apparently Thursday has become my cleaning day. I spend most of Thursday cleaning my house and it just occurred to me today that it's usually on a Thursday because that is the one day I have free (well Wednesday is free too but I spend that doing laundry cause my dad is gone and I don't get in his way). But Monday my niece and nephew are at my mothers house, Tuesday and Friday I have Haylee and Wednesday I reserve for laundry. Weekends we spend running errands. So yea I guess I keep pretty busy really. I spent a good part of the day scrubbing out my fridge. Something oozed and leaked from the top shelf all the way to the bottom! Gross! At least my fridge got a good scrub down today though.

I seriously spent all day cleaning! I scrubbed and vacuumed and cleaned everything! Seriously if I didn't know better I would think I was nesting! I KNEW I should have stopped, or at least not done sooo much but I just couldn't! Something was pushing me to keep going! And every time I'd get one thing done I'd think of 3 others I could do! There was just something driving me forward, pushing me on, that I just couldn't stop! I don't think I've ever done so much in one day! I didn't even feel like this when I was pregnant with Grace. So what was it today? Adulthood finally setting in? Being stir crazy? Wanting to shop but conserving funds? I just don't get it!

I'm really getting excited for Graces birthday party coming up in a couple months! I'm gonna to decorate the screen house outside with streamers and balloons and make it look cute. We will have tables with cute pink and white table cloths on them covered with food, and hopefully I'll have a little pool for the kids to play in (definitely will have the sprinkler going for them!). Everything will be pink, purple and white, and I'll definitely have a cute tiara for Grace to wear (I hope she'll wear it hehe). I've already got a cute dress for her to wear. Or at least 3 to choose from lol.

Broke my glasses today and we can't find the repair kit :-( My poor eye is killing me! And watering like crazy…Totally made Scott go to cvs and buy the repair kit, can't wait til he gets home and fixes them for me! I'd do it myself but I'm having a hard enough time seeing the keys to write this now lol. If I close my right eye (the bad one) it's not so bad, but then the left one craps out after awhile cause its doing all the work…

Sweet dreams and be well…