There has been a lot of drama in my family this past month. And not in my little family of three, but  between siblings and spouses.  And I have to tell you it breaks my heart cause I always thought my family was something that I would have behind me, to be in my corner when I needed them. To love and be loved in return for always. But I'm afraid that may not always be the case. People are holding on to hurt and anger, when instead the need to put all those feelings into bubbles. and blow them away, blow those feelings so far away, just watch them float and feel the weight lift off you. It takes more energy to hold on to those feelings, than to let them go and feel free again.

My family is falling apart, something my mom feared would happen after she died, but now she is watching it happen and she is sick over it. She's been crying over this since it started and I just want to make it better for her, but I don't know how. It seems like anytime someone tries to calm things down, it only makes it worse. I need words of advice here on how to fix this, can anyone do that for me?

My mother always thought we'd fall apart after she died because I'm bipolar and don't always get along with people. She thought that with her gone, there'd be nothing left to hold us together. At the time she voiced this concern to me I didn't care, because I was holding on to my own anger and hurt. and I didn't want much to do with my siblings. As I've gotten older I've realized, I LIKE my brothers, I've always liked them, at one point I'd do anything to hang out with them. I now feel sad that as adults instead of growing closer, as much sibling sets seem to do, we keep growing further apart. I don't want to lose my siblings, or the connection we once had.

I just need all my siblings need to push restart, need to imagine all the hurts, and anger being put into giant bubbles and just blowing them away. Just come  back to the heart of the family and try to live peacefully.

While I was growing up we knew our cousins, and now my kid may not know her cousins because people can't let go and let God. Give your problems to God, or whatever higher power they believe in, and come back to the family.  I'm finding I miss my family, miss connecting with them, and being with them.  I hate being so distant from everyone. I want to be able to go back to family dinners and bar-b-ques, and pool parties.

I just want everyone to let go, and come back to the family. The family I had in 2009 when I had to gather them all together and tell them I had cancer, and they were there. They all backed me up, cried with me, and helped me get through the hardest part, losing my hair by shaving their heads with me.

So my plea tonight is to my family, please let go, please forgive, and please come back.