Its been a long road...

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

It still amazes me that even when I've had a night as dark and stormy as I did last night, that I can still wake the next morning and feel hope, just a little bit, but it's definitely hope. Hope that maybe today won't be so bad, that maybe I will finally be able to laugh without pain. Then, while I'm getting ready for the day, and listening to music, just one song can help lift me up higher out of the despair.

I have a few rally songs for times like last night, but this morning the song that seemed to make things okay was Be Alright by my cousin Chris. For some reason this song really helped me today, and I really feel like I just might have a great day. That everything really will be alright.

I'm off to another doctor appointment, and while it makes me sad that we have to spend another day at a doctor, I've got a kind of hope that this one will be the last one for a year. They need to check the lens one more time, cause last time they made a change to it. Here's hoping.

I've lost 25 of the 35 pounds I gained while on prednisone. So I'm don't to a slim 235. I've still got at least 55 pounds to lose after the last of the prednisone weight come off but I've still come a long way from the 320 I was at when my father died. I'm still proud of all the work I've put in to losing the weight.

I'm still weak, and my rheumatologist thinks it could be causing some of my problems, so she wants me to work on getting stronger. So I've put renewed effort into getting my house cleaned up and respectable living. Here are a couple before and after photos of the rooms I've done so far. I figure since I won't have the van anymore, I have to make this house look great so I can have people over, seeing as I'll have no way of getting to anyone.

Sink area (I didn't think to take a before picture, but there was a fish tank and other things before I cleaned it up)