I love my brother, I truly do.  He read my blog post from the other day that talks about how I was feeling down and out. He called me today to check on me, and find out why I was sad.  He's always been my best friend, he's been one of the greatest friends I could have ever asked for.  Truth be told, I was re-reading my most read blog posts the other night, when I was feeling down, and I almost posted a sappy statement on his page.  So close that I had loaded facebook, opened his page, and actually started writing something out.  Something sappy like "I'm so glad I have you for a brother and a best friend. I'm not sure what I'd ever do without you in my life."  Yeah, sappy stuff.

Sometimes friendship is like that, you just know you have someone that will always be there for you, to have your back, cheer you up, make you laugh.  I'm lucky cause mine also happens to be my brother.  He was there for me during chemo, when we had no car and I needed rides.  We would sit and talk, he'd make me laugh when I was feeling so lost and sad.  He even had the nurses asking for him when he wasn't with me.  He's one of the strongest people I know, and I'm lucky he's my brother and friend.

Scott just worked two full days at work. From like 10AM to 10PM one day, and 10AM to 830PM the next. Which makes Grace extra clingy and whiney, but thankfully he's off tomorrow so she should calm down again.  It's been sad to hear her say that she misses him.  He'd be gone by the time we woke up, and back after she's in bed.  She's a daddy's girl this week, ask me again next week and I'm sure that answer will be different.

I've got follow-up scans next month. Back at my check-up they found enlarged lymph nodes and fluid around my lungs.  They are pretty sure it's just the lupus acting up, but they asked me to come back in 6 months (August 25th) and have another scan done, just to make sure.  I'm only slightly nervous about this.  I mean, if they weren't super nervous about it, then I shouldn't be either, but I can't help but have a slightly anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach.  Ugh, cancer sucks, and so does lupus for that matter. Well at least lupus isn't a death sentence, a pain in the ass sure, but not deadly.

Well it's getting late, I've finally got my super hero asleep, and I want to watch a bit of TV before I fall asleep.  All the work I've been doing in this house has taken a toll on me, and I've spent today exhausted.  I was supposed to work on the bedrooms today but I couldn't find any motivation to do it.  I'm hoping Saturday I'll have more energy, I'd work tomorrow but Scott's home, and I want to spend time with my little family doing things that might be fun.  Although we have to grocery shop and that is not much fun hehe.

Be well all....