The rain has finally stopped. Outside as well as in and I can honestly say that I somehow have found the strength to make it through whatever life throws at me now. I've got this whole new appreciation for life that I definately didn't have before cancer and I don't think I'll ever take life for granted the way I used to.
Every other day I enjoy taking a nice bath with my beautiful little girl, who by the way has figured out that splashing in the tub is so much fun. I think I'm going to have to get more bath toys for us, she gets so mad when I take her out of the water, and I know that if she's having a very cranky day I can put her in the tub and she becomes a different person. Every day we snuggle together for nap time and at bedtime, I either snuggle her or rub her back til she is asleep, and then I usually sit there for a few minutes longer and just watch her. And I think, she's all mine. I grew this tiny, beautiful, special child inside of me, and I get the profound joy and pleasure of helping her grow up and become a wonderful person who will do great things.
We lost power last night with the storm, and I can honestly say that our house had never been so dark and quiet. But it was so great to lay in bed with Scott and just whisper with each other about absolutely nothing at all. I had forgotten how special those stolen moments could be. And long after he had fallen asleep, I laid next to him and listened to him breath and thought, how lucky am I to have such a wonderful husband. And on the other side of me, my beautiful girl slept peacefully in her crib next to my bed. Honestly I am beyond blessed and loved by these two special people. And if this should be the extent of my family, if there should be no more children, then so be it. There is more than enough love here to last a lifetime and more.
It amazes me that it took a raging storm outside to calm the one inside of me. But God obviously knew what I needed to find my ground again, to find my center. He knew just how to restore the peace and harmony to my life.
Be well....
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