Never a dull moment around here lately. Feels like we're always running off to something! Like radiation 5 days a week (imagine, running into Boston everyday for work, now shorten your work day from 8-10hours to 30 MINUTES! thats what I do everyday lol). I'm exhausted from all the running. I actually went to bed last night at like 9pm I was so tired. I had to put Scott on baby duty last night, I just couldnt stay awake.
Coming up on a 5 day chemo cycle. I must admit I'm a bit scared... It's too close to the holidays for my comfort. I REALLY dont want to end up in the hospital with low counts again. I REALLY dont want to be there for my baby's first christmas. At least she's young enough that it doesnt make a difference to her, just me.
What will suck is the lack of visitors. Everyone hates driving in Boston, so other than Scott and the baby, it'll just be me and the nurses.
Blah what am I worrying already for. I'll know better on Friday when I learn where my counts are right now as to what will happen after chemo. Hopefully I'll be home and cozy with my family for the holidays.
Going back to the opthomologist today. Hopefully I can stop wearing this stupid eye patch and see the world again. My other eye is so tired from doing all the work. Grace is laying on the floor next to me playing on her play gym. She's such a good baby. I'm way too lucky with her. Scott's sound asleep in the bed behind me, I almost hate to wake him up but there's errands to be done before we go rushing off to radiation and opthomology. At least Grace is spared running into Boston today, my mom is going to watch her for us cause it's such a long day.
My mom...what would I do without her. We never would have made it this far if it weren't for her. She takes care of Grace for us, and threw a benefit to help us pay our bills. She's truly amazing.
Be well.
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