Who's got the cutest girl? Oh that's right, I do! She's a completely different person when it's just me and her and I'm enjoying my alone time with her while Scott's at work. I'm also enjoying my alone time while they are both gone so I can get my house clean and back to the proper standards that it should be at. I didn't realize just how hard it was to clean when another person was around. On Wednesday I cleaned my entire upstairs and I loved it. Like legit loved scrubbing the bathroom and everything. Yeah I must be ill lol. 

The insomnia is still pretty bad. I hate waking up at 3, 4 or 5 in the am for no reason. It definitely sucks laying in bed and staring at the wall. I can only count so many sheep before I start imagine them crashing into the fence lol. Have any suggestions on how to beat insomnia? It's not from medicine so there's got to be another reason for it. 

I've lost so much weight I look like a bag lady in my clothes now lol. I ordered a couple long sleeved tshirts that will hopefully fit. Should be here soon I hope. 

I'm nervous about the idea of having another baby. What if I'm damage and can't get pregnant? Or have only miscarriages? Or have babies with lots of medical problems? Or what if I get sick again? Ugh…. Gotta have faith everything will work out the way it should I guess. I'm trying but right now it's kind of hard. Well as Scott said last night, just got to take it day by day and step by step. 

Be well