Holy fucking breakdown!!

I was in the shower this morning (I'll pause for a bit while you get THAT image out of your head lol) and my theme song came on, Faith of the Heart. Boy did that set off the water works. My father was one of three people who thought every clean scan milestone was a reason to celebrate with a party of some sort (Scott and I are the other two). And it hit me, I have scans next month and he's not here. Who the hell is going to want to throw a party with me now? Faith of the Heart will never be the same for me again. What's 3 years going to mean now? I'm not sure anymore…

Grace had her valentines day party at school. I'm so glad she was feeling a bit better and could go! I knew she'd be disappointed if she had to miss it. Got Grace a little gift for valentines day, can not wait to give it to her. I love her excitement for every thing!

Well it's late and I'm off. Goodnight all