This Woman's Work...

I'm in love. There. I said it. I'm in love and its incredible, and unbelievable and so amazing.  And as much as she drive's me nuts with her constant climbing, and her desire to touch the buttons on everything, I'm so in love with her, and I find it incredible that she came from me. She's a part of me and Scott and the love we have for each other.  She's a wonderful and amazing person.  And, she's mine. At least for 17 more years, whether she likes it or not, and if she's anything like me, by the time she's "free" she'll love her mother so much more, and with such an appreciation.  And, truly, my mother is my best friend. The one I can tell anything to, the one who hears everything about me, knows everything about me, and despite all my many flaws, loves me still.

I look back at the past 17 months, hell, the past 2 years, from the day I learned I was pregnant and carried, yes carried, the test stick around with me all day cause I was beyond excited and couldn't wait to share the news with everyone. And I really couldn't, I always thought there'd be another pregnancy to do it all differently for, to "hide" the truth of it, and wait to see how long it took for someone to figure it out on their own, but knowing what I do now, I still wouldn't change a damn thing.  I would still burst at the news that I was pregnant, and who's to say that given the chance, I would do it differently?

And tonight, as I put my little girl to bed, I realized, this is it. This is what heaven must be like.  I was so at peace, and so ready for anything, and quite frankly, with my girl by my side, I know I can do anything.  I'm so in love.

"He'd look just like me when I was young

And I wonder as the days unwind
Will he have your eyes or mine
Then i wake up to my
Apron strings
Cold and lonely
For time brings
Thoughts that only
Will be quiet when someone clings to my
Apron strings
And i'll be perfect in my own way
When you cry i'll be there
I'll sing to you and comb your hair
All your troubles i will share" Apron Strings

I still have hopes that someday, somehow I'll have a little boy, who'll look just like his sister (much the way I look so much like my brother Gregg).  But I think he'll remain a dream.  But who really knows what medical marvels can do?
 
"I Know You've Got A Litte Life In You Yet

I Know You've Got A Lot Of Strength Left
I Know You've Got A Little Life In You Yet
I Know You've Got A Lot Of Strength Left" This Woman's Work

Be well....