I probably sounded like such a bitch in my post yesterday and I do apologize for that. I just was feeling so low last night and wasn't finding comfort from anyone and it was starting to get to me. The only person I could get any comfort from doesn't understand what is going on and is too little to give me any support really. She's great for a cuddle, and I definately needed some of those, but she's one and full of all her own little problems, like the knife that is out of her reach, or daddys chair blocking his computer and all those other little things that she cant have that she just wants at her age lol.
I feel betrayed by my body and by the medicine that saved my life. I feel like I'm on the edge here and just one more bit of disappointing news will send me over the edge, where are my friends when I need them? Why do I feel so alone? This isnt fair in anyway. I'm 27! I should NOT be facing menopause, and infertility! I was just starting my family damnit! I feel just like my toddler does at the moment, and she once again managed to fall on her butt (cause she was trying to walk OVER something instead of around it). I feel like I just fell on my butt, and not onto a carpeted floor! But the hard pavement, covered in ice! And unlike the last time I fell on the ice, I am already home and there is no changing my situation. All I can do is sit here and cry, but I've got no one holding my hand this time, no one trying to help me get back up.
I'm feeling beyond robbed of so much at the moment! I was so sick for most of her firsts and now I will never get to see and experience those firsts with another. Why did this happen to me? I am incredibly angry right now and I hate that I feel this way!
Im done for now
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