Living with a chronic illness has been one of the most challenging things I have ever done. Do you know how depressing it is to not feel comfortable in your own skin? To awake in the morning with plans and to end up feeling so awful that you can barely leave your house. It's not all fun and games here.  I know I'll never be back to what I was before the cancer, I don't harbor illusions like that, but if I could just walk around the grocery store and NOT feel like I'm going to die, that would be spectacular.

It seems like every time 1 thing quiets down something else pops up. The flare up is over, and now they are concerned about the iron levels in my liver. So, hello new doctor, let me give you my life history too. I see that one next month to find out how to take care of that.

I've decided to become a mall walker. I figure if the outside is so bad for me, I'll just walk inside. Grace is excited to do it with me, so that'll be a bonus, I'll have a little friend with me. I'm gonna try real hard to get my life back into my control, and not let all this medical stuff dictate how to live.

Well I'm off to play some Diablo with my love. Night all