I'm feeling really disconnected from the world lately. I feel like since I've moved everyone has forgotten we exist. I got a new phone, and told people I needed them to text me so I'd have their number and only one person messaged me. Just one. Hows that for love? My brother messages when he needs a babysitter, I never hear from my mom unless I message her, John and Glenn never talked to me anyway, and as for friends, well other than Jill and her family I don't really get to see anyone. On nice days Grace and I take walks, and play in the yard but I'm feeling lonely and forgotten. For awhile there in my life, I almost felt like I had friends, but I guess I built that all up in my head. Oh well. Maybe when Grace starts school in the fall I'll make friends, who knows? I'm so full of anxiety and so nervous around new people, its hard to just open up and be myself. Then again, I get nervous they won't like me because of things that are beyond my control, like my teeth. Seriously, when you see someone with a mouth full of broken teeth and empty spaces, what do you think? My first thought was usually along the lines of druggie, trash, and whatnot. Now.... Now I know what its like to to be on the recieving end of those looks and it hurts. I can't help that chemo destroyed my teeth, and of course I'm so self conscious about it that I almost always blurt out about chemo and cancer and what not, then I feel like I've said too much and like maybe they think I'm trying to get sympathy, so it makes me more awkward. Such a catch 22. Wish I could afford to just have all my teeth pulled and have dentures put in.

made Easter eggs with Grace, Jill and the boys last night. It was a lot of fun. Today Grace and I have been cleaning like crazy because tomorrow we're getting a couch, finally!! Super exciting. So Grace and I are redoing the living room and making space for it to come in. We are so glad that this couch became available, Jills dad is cleaning out his mothers house and this couch sat in her living room barely used. Its clean and decent looking and more comfortable than the floor lol. We've been hanging out on the floor on cushions since our couch didn't fit, and we were planning on getting a new one when we had the money so this is really perfect.