After such a craptastic day yesterday I woke today determined to make today better, and so far I seem to be failing. I'm still feeling low and nothing I do is making that better. I miss my dad like crazy and I want so much to not to that I keep trying to think of the ba things, like his mood swings and his laziness ect ect ect but then I think of the good things, like playing cards, him teaching me to drive ect ect ect that it makes me miss him. I wish I spent more time with him these past few years and not being to busy and into my own life. 

Any way, trying to make today better and I'm gonna get my house cleaned and groceries bought (and no I will not go into market basket cause that may just cause another full break down again) and if I can I'm gonna work on painting that room, but seriously painting over red and dark blue is more of a challenge than I really was expecting. I was hoping to be done with this room and have it all set up by the end of this week, and I still hae hopes for that I guess. But I am taking pictures this time. I've got 2 before, and 2 during an hopefully I'll have a few afters as well.