An ache

So today was the day of stress... I take my 2 year old into the grocery store with me, and at some point bout 5 minutes into our shopping trip, she keeps trying to eat the package of mozzarella cheese, yes the package, not the cheese.  While trying to get her to stop, I deleted my ENTIRE grocery list and menu plan for the next two weeks. Yes I am one of those fools who did it electronically and then paid the price for being distracted... Anyway, she then decides to THROW the package of cheese across the aisle.  This girl tried every last nerve in my body tonight.

My Grandfather stuck this on his desk..

But then at bedtime she said something that made my heart stop, and tears threaten to overflow from my eyes.  She couldn't find her picture of Bampa, 

yes this exact picture!

and she insisted she HAD to know where it was before bed, so we looked for it. When I handed it to her she kissed his face and said "night night Bampa, love you" and then looked at me and said "Mama, where'd Bampa go?" And I just stopped breathing for a minute, and my eyes filled up with tears, and I said "Bampa got really tired baby, and he had to go somewhere so he could rest. But he'll always be in your heart" and I pointed to her chest. She touched her chest, smiled and laid down. How else do you explain death to a 2 year old? I never expected to have to have this conversation with her, so I was really caught off guard by it.

My moms been on vacation this past week, and Grace asks for her daily. I just tell her that nana is on vacation and will be back soon. Tonight she was excited to know that Nana would be back for dinner tomorrow. I hope my mom knows what she's coming back to with that one lol.  I promised her a dinner of mussels in tomato broth and scallops wrapped in bacon, my first time cooking either of these things, hope I dont screw them up too much!

Be well